sad

i was suppossed to go to dehradun to visit my little sisters and i cant go now bcoz i've fallen ill. quite sad bcoz i was really looking forward to it. always have the worst luck.

and the worst thing is that since i'll b at home i'll b expected to study for these 2 days. especally since i specifically told my parents i'm gonna start studying as soon as i get a couple of days off from college to clear the backlog.....remind me to never make statements like that.

the "buddy factor"

as arpita has quite rightly pointed out, the 'buddy factor" is causing a major hindrance in my love life. if anybody has any ideas about gettin rid of this "buddy factor" please let me know.

of lost opportunities

got to know something yesterday which quite surprised me. cant really mention it on a public forum(though some ppl do know wot i'm talking about...lol). all i wanna say is, WHY ME???

have made a resolution to alwayz speak my mind now and NEVER keep anything just to myself.

life....or something like it

i start having doubts about the purpose of life:-

1)when i get more homework in english, no wait, i get homework ONLY IN ENGLISH when i'm doing eco honours.

2)when the homework consists of reading the works of an obscure URDU poet, and recitng the poem which we like best.

3)when i actually DO A SEARCH on google looking for the works of the poet.

4)when i realize his stuff isnt bad at all(the translations that is) and actually READ ALL HIS COUPLETS!

(the obscure poet is fazi ahmed faiz, by the way, and this is his photo)

well its been more than a fortnight now. college is definitely a lot better. dont feel the overwhelming need to go home as soon as classes end. major acievement from the first week i would say.

the weirdest thing happenned a few days ago. i met my dancing partner from EIGHT years ago. hez the boyfriend of a freind of mine i met at north campus. i couldnt recognise him one bit. he told me, u look really familiar. a few days later, we meet again, and he goes like, r u tania? do u remember we'd danced together with plates eight years ago??!! talk about coincidence.

went to school on saturday. i came 5th so i got a prize!! could finally see the rock band competition, after passing out of school. sad. anyway the nice bit is that one of the judges was really cute(a band member of bandish), though quite possibly a druggie. he kept going to the loo every half an hour, looking quite disoriented. and also, the lead singer of the dps mathura road was reeaaally cute. bengali too(lol). and sang brilliantly. it was his voice that hooked me. shit, i'm crushing on a kid younger than me. height of desperation. lol. maybe i should put up a notice oh hi5. 17 yr old, looking for companion. shit, so extremely lame. and i'll get all the dirty old men anyway.

anyway, enough of my desperation for now. friends is about to start. until next time........

an update

well college has begun and its been a week. was so shit scared about ragging on the first day but I HAVENT BEEN RAGGED EVEN ONCE! SRCC honestly is quite nerdy. i'm not complaining though. couldnt be happier.

other than that though, college hasnt been too good except for yesterday. havent found my kind of people yet. met this girl whoz completely my type but shez in the other section! i have the worst karma possible. my fate works overtime to give me a hard time.

baked a cake for arpita on her birthday. hence she forgived me for being horrendously late. lol. piece of advice, if u're ever late for a friend's bday or something, bake a cake(or cookies or a souffle or wotever). saves u everytime. lol.

the babies r one and a half months old now. and they r the CUTESTS THINGS EVER. i know i said it the last time too, but yeah, their pictures r gonna b posted anytime now. i havent been able to do it for the sole reason that my net hasnt been working and the pictures r loaded on the pc. have been using my dad's laptop these days to check my mail n stuff.

weekend's over already. college again from tomorrow. hope it gets better. have never been so low in a long time as the past week. wish me luck.

on cloud number nine....mostly

alrite so st. stephens isnt happenning. if any1 has read my overly effervescent previous entry, they'll realize there is a lesson to b learnt here. the proverbial story of counting one's chickens b4.....u know. the jerks screwed me in the interview. but heck, i dont give a damn, its their loss. the only regret i have is that the ppl i met there were the kind whom i can imagine hanging out with and having deep discussions with, over a cup of coffee at their "cafe".

also met 2 cute guys. hopefully they screwed up their interviews too and r heading for srcc. i know thats mean, but the thing is, i was quite QUITE dissapointed with the crowd at srcc. i mean, no offence, but i couldnt believe ppl like them r gonna b in srcc! alrite i shudnt b complaining. after all, i'm in the bst F***ing collge for commerce in the whole goddamn country. whoopee.

actually gettin into srcc isnt the only reason for my unnaturally cheerful disposition(lol). my aunt has just had 2 beautiful baby girls!!!! on the 12th of june. cudnt post this earlier coz my useless internet wasnt working again. anyway, coming back to the point, they r absolutely B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L. and so TINY. i cudnt believe how anything can be so tiny. and cant believe its possible to love anything so much. i just loooooove them. their pictures are gonna b posted here anyday now, so WATCH THIS SPACE. and yeah, before i forget, gangaram is a terrible TERRIBLE place to hv babies. and if u havent been paying attention, my little sisters are just beautifulllll.

by the way, my salsa is on hold for the time being. dont think i can manage along with college. mite join again later but for now its not happening. had quite a lot of fun these last 2 months though. advice to any1 who's bored. JOIN SALSA! ITS GREAT! and come to TAPAS EVERY SATURDAY for SALSA NITES. SIDC shud pay me. i'm advertising them for free.

that's all for now, goodbye all.

P.S.- if any1 is goin to hindu do let me know coz i dont know any1 who is and i need some friends over there(considering the fact that it IS the most happenning college in north campus).