hindsight.......

hols hv been good. through all the cribbing and the (pretensions of) depression, they've been good. the prospect of going back to college does not make me too happy. the thing is, i have a theory to test whether u're having fun or not. if time slips by really quickly then hell yes u've been having fun, whether u admit it or not. and if the days seem to last years then ok, u arent exactly living it up. haha. anyway, coming back to the point, the last month has passed by really REALLY quickly. its pretty much been a blur. and a very nice, happy blur. in hindsight of course. lol.

lots of things happened, funny things, sweet things, slightly sad things also. but, in hindsight(uff, that word again. note to self : desperately need to improve writing skills), all those things were fun, and well, happy. even the sad things; in a weird, twisted way. lol.

don't have very high expectations from the coming month. get the awful feeling that it's gonna suck pretty badly. don't know why. maybe i'm wrong. in fact, quite possibly i am wrong. i'm just a little weird about these things.

last few weeks i've also realized how much i love my friends. and how fucking much i need them around. love u guys. i refuse to elaborate on this point because....well, i just do.

a point i'd like to make. some ppl are such bloody morons. they like to screw up life even when things are going perfectly smoothly. i am not hinting at anyone in particular right now, but its the truth. yeah even i do it sometimes(did something like that a couple of weeks back....fuck), but i don't do it as often as other people seem to. grow up people, things don't last long enough for u to sulk. sulking is a complete fucking waste of time. not only does it make u feel really wasted, it serves absolutely no fucking purpose. if u wanna show how pissed u are, scream. it'll do u more good(as in, make u feel better) and get ur point across. sulking HARDLY EVER gets ur point across.

i'm wondering why i digress so much. can't stick to one subject for too long. makes my head spin as much as urs. but its a failing which i have, which u have to bear if u read my blog(i'm being awfully presumptious here). but don't u think its kind of fun?makes ur brain sharper, doesn't it? c'mon admit it. alright enough of pissing u off. i tend to talk crap sometimes, when i run out of stuff to talk about. u would have noticed that, if u've read my earlier blogs(and if u haven't, well what the hell are u bloody waiting for???!!!).

so let me stop pissing u off, and go watch tv.

P.S.-this blog almost didn't get published on time thanks to my procrastinating talents(more on that later, it warrants an entire blog entry). publishing this after college started would have kinda defeated the whole purpose of this entry. a vote of thanks to my boredom and my temporary insomnia.